holding back

It's amazing how much I want to write to him and how much I have to hold back from doing so...
I know I have to give him time. I will send the book inscribed with my inner thoughts and my promise, send him the Cd's I promised and wait for him until he's ready. How long I don't know...I hope not years. He's my soulmate, the man I truly adore in every sense of the word, feel comfortable with, trust explicitly...WHY? I DON'T KNOW!!!